so yeah, i'm gonna blubber....

today in relief society we had a lesson on keeping in touch with our families. and it made me a little sentimental.... i love it here but i miss being home too, watching all the little ones that aren't even little anymore grow up. when i talk to them on the phone i get all sad cause i realize that i'm not there for any of this important stuff in their lives. so i just want them to know that i love them and i think about them ALL the time. so alicia, when you read this, spread the word. also to blubber about... tonight i headed out to craig and cori's house. i love them so stinkin much. it was ethans first birthday so i got to go out for the dinner and celebrations =] it is sooooo nice to be able to just drive out there and relax. when i'm there i can just talk to craig and cori about all my frustrations and they understand every single bit of it. they reassure me that i'm ok and that i'm not abnormal for having this totally confused feeling. tonight craig also gave me a blessing. i'm so lucky that i have him so close by. i have been loaded down with all my worries and stresses and i was honestly getting to the point where i wasn't sure i could handle it anymore. so thank you to craig, he saved the day. =] i love you both so much and i'm blessed to have such amazing family and a wonderful cousin worthy of his priesthood for times like this. i needed it.